“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a Life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”Francis Scott Fitzgerald
During the last few weeks I have been through intense transformation and the culminating moment was during a silent retreat with my teacher Adyashanti. Silence is key to healing, listening, learning to be again…from that place answers flow effortlessly, sometimes in an unexpected way, and very often with messages that -maybe- we didn’t want to hear…very often reaffirming what we deeply know but are scared to acknowledge.
This is why I believe in the power of safely held ceremonies, retreats that take us away from mundane things and “dramas”, spending time in nature. I realise I need to focus on what makes me happy as should/could you… It might take few weeks, months to transition towards more balance and really embody what I believe in. We are a perpetual work in progress.
The most important thing is to trust, surrender and let the magic happen. Each day I am more and more amazed by this life, this body. I feel that I have always been supported even at challenging times. As I breathe I am reminded on how this body has supported me to the best it could even when I didn’t honour it as I should ( I don’t like the use of the word should but in that case it suits the context well).
Do not think that what I teach in classes and what I share with you in sessions of healing, abdominal work, massages, cacao circles is not for me as well. Each class is a reminder to be more present, to actually take that deep breath, to listen to my body; each client is a mirror to take that step towards more time off, to be lighter in my way of living, to slow down when I eat so my belly is happy and as a result my health better. We are all in this together, we are all teachers and students of each other and we have touched lives and have been touched by others.
On this glorious day may we be reminded of the Impermanence of Life. Few weeks ago I was shaken to the core by successive unpleasant situations, sickness and bad news. Through processing, feeling my way through them I decided that life was too short not to love, forgive and be (more).
Since, I started seeing changes around me. I know I will be triggered again, we will all be challenged at times but maybe our responses can be different. I have been humbled up -after all I am human- and had to face few aspects of my shadow to end up laughing in its face. Who did I think I was? We have all heard it, read it, understood it, but have we really been it? I am talking about Love. Not the romantic love but that deep acceptance. The concept that we are perfect as we are, even though, like a Zen master said a long time ago, there is always room for improvement.
Today I choose to step fully into healing. This is my commitment to myself and you. What is yours?
Remember: you are Loved; you are Love.
In Deep Gratitude.